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I don’t want to be here typing today and tell you guys that now I am back where I stated at 129. But I am and I needed to share. So many things went wrong this week, school stated and my internship so I am now very busy, I decided to breakup with my live in bf, this is hard and as a result my finical situation is stressed. I have also been having a bit too much beer this week, I haven’t worked out and my food choices have been poor. I have don’t nothing rite, that’s the truth and that’s why I gained 2 pounds this week.

I know, I know today is another day and all that stuff. Well I say that way too much myself and it gives me an excuse to keep messing up. I hope my motivation kicks in, I am so not ok with my weight right now. I feel weak and I let myself down.

Well we shall see I guess…………….

…………………and drum roll please, I LOST! Yep one more pound down, 127.2 today (last week 128.4). I am so glad, I was starting to get frustrated. This week (Wednesday-Wednesday) was good in food, I ate my 3 meals 6 days out of 7 (progress not perfection yet) and ate with in my calorie range. I did consume a total of 10 beers, but on the days I choose to drink I drank more water and had less food so overall it went well. Where I totally failed this week was I haven’t worked out once!! (Goal is 3 times min) and that sucks, I gotta get moving again. I always fall off the work out deal. Any suggestions?

Well this Friday I start my internship which added to my two jobs and going to school fulltime, is a lot. I will work / school 6 days a week and I am nervous about the stress. Stress for me can cause eating and I am sure I won’t have as much time to be on this site. A part of me is ready as this is what I have been studying for and want to do with my life, but a part of me is insecure and filled with fear. I am getting my Masters in Counseling as a Marriage and Family Therapist. I hope one day to start my own practice but until then I gotta get my hours and finish school (I should graduate Dec 2010, so I am almost there). Anyway just wanted to share where my head is this week.

Hope you all are rockin’.

It feels good to wake up without the guilty feelings caused by overeating. In this moment I can say “good job” to myself, I had a good food day yesterday. My belly isn’t bloated today like it is when I have a food party. I am not beating myself up for being a weakling. I am not telling myself things to comfort my ego. Funny, one day of eating moderately makes so much difference in my mood.

I want to thank my buddies for their support. I really thought about giving up and signing off buddyslim forever. My shame of a sole pound weight loss was saddening. But I plan to stay connected; I will shed my pounds and buy my designer jeans!

Our trip was a bit of a rollercoaster. First my aunts ended up being in LV the same weekend and one of them ended up admitted to the hospital so we stopped and visited her twice. Of course family comes first and I was happy to be there but it caused some stress and shorted our trip (not to mention I had to stay a bit more sober than planned just in case). But in the end it all worked out and my aunt is now home safe and ok.

As for the food, I did ok I guess. I didn’t really reach for the healthy foods, I kind just ate and enjoyed myself but I didn’t stuff myself and I had way less alcohol than I expected. We also walked a ton as we visited almost every casino on the strip; I know I burned tons of cals there. I did drink my water, and made and effort to have a small bottle in between each drink.

My bf and I got in a few arguments than bummed me out but we overcame them and ended up enjoying our trip. We drove away winning money, I hit a $750 jackpot and we both hit a few $100 jackpots. Our winnings paid for the whole trip (rooms, gas, food, drinks, ect) plus I am $150 richer. How cool is that.

Yesterday I was drained on energy from the weekend and I still am. I have not tracked my food / cals yet but I am starting today. Thanks to all the ladies for their buddy boosters and support while I was away. You gals rock.

So 128.4 today, (yesterday I was 127.4) don’t get it, I ate well yesterday and I worked out. I have had a great week so far, I have worked out 3 days in a row so far and have eaten just above my cals (1550 is my target). Well whatever scale, I just will work harder I guess. Loosing one pound is so hard for me but I have no choice. I will reach my goal. I have about 500 cals left for dinner so I will be sure to plan for that.

Hope you all are doing well and thanks again for your support. WE CAN DO IT GALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok gals my bf and I are going to LV this weekend (Friday night –Sunday night) and I am nervous (and excited, of course).

Here is my plan: I will work out every day this week, Monday – Friday (Just did it today so good start). I will really work hard on eating my calories this week, because I know I will have a high calorie weekend. I plan to go beer crazy of course (and slot machine crazy) but I want to watch my food intake and choices.

A buddy of mine (Nisey) suggested I fill up on fruits in the morning for breakfast and her simple suggestion is great. (Oh and she reminded me to drink tons of water too, she is so smart………lol). Really, it’s simple to say but so much harder to do (I mean controlling myself at some of the best buffets will be a task for sure). Any other ideas you ladies have, please let me know. I gotta plan ahead or I will be doomed.

Hope you all are rockin’ and rollin’ on you goals and weight loss journey. I weigh in Wednesday so we will see where I am at.

So I am a property manager and I needed my maintenance guys to do some heavy lifting  for me (and on a Friday they so don’t want to help) so I bought ice cream, chocolate sauce and whipped cream to bribe them (they worked hard and did a great job) but of course I ate some, more than I planned and now I am upset. I only have 420 cals left and I already planned a 600 calorie dinner (Shrimp, asparagus and wheat pasta dish with one glass of white wine).  I always cook a fish dinner for me and my bf on Fridays. Ok so the plan is to eat less that a serving, like ¾ of it. That’s the best I can do and not go to be unhappy and starving. I will also walk or swim tonight to help.

Not a good start to my weekend but needed to share so I don’t just say eff it and end up stuffing my face all weekend. I can have a healthy weekend and still enjoy myself. (Hope you can too).

So I feel exhausted and lazy and I need help. Tired is a dangerous place for me to because I can easily run to the food. I could not get out of bed yesterday or this morning to work out and I feel so depressed about it. My alarm goes off but I don’t move. I know I should “just do it” but it’s a struggle right now! I need some motivation from my buddies, please help.

As for my food / calorie intake so far this week I am doing well. I am worried about the weekend as usual but I feel very determined to stay within my cals (thanks to a buddy who shared it takes 21 days to form a habit) so that’s my goal right now, get threw 21 days of eating my food plan, today is day 3 and so far so good.

Oh and I finally told my bf about this site because I couldn’t hide it anymore, he was cool about it and I hope it will help me this weekend because I can easily jump on for support.

Anyway all I wish you the best weekend.

So I was doing great and feeling good but then came —-Sunday and my little sister to visit. We went to our county fair and boy did I eat (and drink but only my 2 beers as planned). The grease and junk triggered me and my eating didn’t stop until this morning. I ate in bed late last nite and my bf even asked if I was eating because I was depressed, OMG I wanted to die so I bit his head off instead.

What went wrong? I couldn’t visit this site Sunday-Monday because I had no private time (my membership here is secret) thus without the support I went nuts. I got used to this site fast, and boy did I miss and need it. Also, the drinking thing was hard but I didn’t go nuts so that was improvement. I prepared well for Friday and Saturday night with the help of my buddies (thank you all) but Sun-Monday I was left to relay upon myself and that so didn’t work out.

Results: I stepped on the scale today to weight over 129lbs so that is a 2 pound weight gain in two days!!! Tomorrow is my tracked weigh day so we shall see the result that counts. I am trying hard today, I have eaten like 700 cals so far and I am going to walk / swim in a few.

Bottom Line: I can’t afford to have one or two “bad” or “off” days. I need to stick to my food plan EVERY DAY NO MATTER WHAT.

Good First:

I got up (on Saturday) at 645am and I did my abdominal cardio video. I feel great, full of energy. I did two loads of laundry and picked up the house, all before leaving to work at 930am. That’s a miracle girls, and I so couldn’t have done it today without the support and advise I was given about how to take care of my self this weekend (weekends are so hard, the socializing, eating and drinking). Anyway that’s the good, now for the other.

Bad:

I am trying to eat 1550 cals a day and its hard. Last night I ate 2154, which is still less than I would eat on a Friday but not even close to my goal. I wont beat myself up cause I do that enough but here is where I went wrong: I ate to many combined cals during breakfast and lunch, I should have cut a bit more to save for my big dinner (I cook fish Fridays at home and prepare a special meal, I made crab and rice). I ate a moderate portion and used light butter and but then after dinner I had ice cream, there was 190 cals not planned for (I could have reached for my 100 cal ice cream but I did not).

So today, I am planning better: I am eating a smaller breakfast and lunch so that I have enough cals for the bbq at my house tonight (one of my closest and oldest friends from high school found out she is pregnant. She called me late last night so I invited her and her man over for a dinner celebration). My menu is already planned and if I stick with my plan, I should survive tonight. Wish me luck ladies, it will be hard but I am committed and motivated.

Ok back to work, hope you all are rockin’ this weekend.